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"To The Former Self In Art Class"
Hannah Faith Notess



You didn't know the boy sitting next to you
in Watercolor 101 was going to shutter himself
in the car, stop breathing, break the heart
of his father and the whole college.

Let's be honest. His cones and cylinders
were as lopsided, as badly shaded
as everyone else's cones and cylinders.

When you hear the news two years later,
you search your own tatty portfolio
for clues, sigh If only I had known—
but I want to shake you and say, You didn't,

and anyway that phrase is a stupider knife
even than Ockham's razor. If you went,
with your grey lens of knowledge, back to that
minute, you'd still be painting the same

burnt-out cathedral under burnt-orange blood
dripping from the sky, collaged with quotations
from The Waste Land. You thought it meant

you were losing your faith; but look, there you are
sitting in church, five years in the future,
wondering (like a good Protestant) why
you want so much to pray for the souls of the dead.

In fact, you could go back and forth enough
times to wear a rut in the floor of time,
but your awkward brushstrokes would still paint
the same cathedral that lists to the left. You'd still

stay up all night in agony over the alchemical
substance of the soul. Your grand attempts
at phthalo yellow sunrises would still turn murky,

while the same boy sat silent beside you,
washing the globe of an apple with quinacridone
gold, shading it with Payne's grey,
the same dark worm asleep on his heart.




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I'm erratic, what of it? Can't be measured in a vial or filed away; I evaporate, I don't stay. I finished napowrimo 2 weeks late but everything I write is deeply unsatisfactory. A lot has happened, or been happening. My parents are being sued by a disgruntled shepherd. My little brother got expelled from his highschool for dealing drugs. I bought a tub of icing and ate it with bananas and I do not regret the improvement it has made to my weekend in the slightest.

You should watch the miniseries 'Top Of The Lake', set in my homeland (the South Island of New Zealand). It's beautifully shot, and was produced by Jane Campion (a woman I admire very much).

I hope you are well.
  • Mood: Speechless

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MatthewLittle Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013  Student Writer
Beautiful poetry.
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happy birthday! :cake:
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Astralseed Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2013  Professional General Artist
You've been featured here to help gain a bit more exposure to your art [link] :aww:
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wander-mind Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Eeek thank you so much! :D
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You're very welcome :)
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thesquareroot Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thanks for the fave
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WallabyArt Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2013
thanks for faving "what is between? what is beyond?"
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thanks
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thank you for the :+fav:s!
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:iconthankyou1::iconthankyou2: very much for the :+devwatch::iconbeauroseplz:
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